One of the most heartless evil women I have ever come across in this life. Jessica was girlfriends with a friend of mine, named Matt. She was hot as hell, and cold as ice. She cheated on him a bunch of times, and he even had charges pressed against him when he attacked someone she slept with...but he stayed with her. I hung out with them often, even made some stupid home action movies with them at one point (Matt played a drug lord and she was his girl). She use to flirt with me a lot, and I was always trying to ignore it. There was one point where we had just got out of a movie (Return of the King) and we were all standing around our cars talking, and Matt said a gross joke and Jessica goes "Ew" and comes over to me and leans against me and says "I'm going home with you". I just laughed and moved away from her, but just that little touch made me feel really lonely. I was still a virgin at 23, and it caused me a lot of stress to think about her when she was with Matt.
I could usually block out thoughts of women if they were in a relationship, but she was on my mind a lot because of the constant flirting. After moving out of Horsham into Philadelphia, Matt helped get me a job at Dominoes Pizza, where we worked together for about a year. At one point, he broke up with Jessica, and started dating another girl. I decided to call Jessica and see if she wanted to hang out, and she did. She came over and within a few minutes of us hanging out she cuddled up with me on the couch watching movies. I felt so incredibly happy for the first time in years, and didn't feel any guilt because I assumed Matt moved on (I mean, he did already have another girl). The very next day at work, he comes up to me and says "Why were you hanging out with Jess?" and my heart sunk. I said "I'm lonely and I was hoping she had some single friends I could meet." I got home from work and called her, asking her why she told him, and she says "I was arguing with him and it slipped out".
We spent the next week hanging out every day, cuddled up on my couch watching movies. I felt so happy, but at the same time I was a little uneasy about the whole thing. She asked me to go see a new Tom Cruise movie with her, called Collateral. I drove us to the theater, and we walked in holding hands, got our tickets, went into the theater holding hands and then sat down and watched the movie, and she never let go of my hand the whole time. On the ride home, she says "Don't tell Matt about us going to the movies, he will just start arguing with me again", and I agree and drop her off at her house. At this point I was convinced she liked me, and thought we were gonna be couple from then on. The next day, Matt calls me, and goes "How was the movie?", and I'm like "What movie?" and he goes "The one you saw with Jess last night"...I felt sick, and so fucking angry. First of all, who the fuck does this asshole think he is. He had been broken up with her for a few weeks, was seeing someone else, and is acting like she is his property? On top of that, she is hanging out with me and then turning around and telling him as quickly as she can, WTF.
The next day I worked, and was trying hard not to break down in front of people, because I was just sick and stressed and heartbroken. I was trying to reach Jess the night before, but I couldn't, and I couldn't think straight and all I wanted to do was talk to her. When business slowed down, the boss let me use the office, so I closed the door, called her, and she picked up. I asked her "Why did you tell Matt about the movie after telling me now to say anything?" and she says "I always talk to Matt about everything", and just acted like she did nothing wrong. She then says "I've got to go get ready, me and Matt and going to the bar tonight" and I was like "What about us?" and she goes "What do you mean Us?" and I say "Aren't we together?" and she goes "Uh no" and hangs up. I came out of the office and my Boss could see the despair on my face, he knew the situation up to this point, and I told him what she had just said to me, and he goes "So all that for nothing huh?" and he let me go home for the day.
I got home, and was feeling just about as bad as it can get, then Jess calls me..."Hey, I'm sorry for saying that earlier, I was just upset from fighting with Matt"...but I wasn't really believing her at this point, and got off the phone with her. She called me again about an hour later "Please let me make it up to you, go to the bar with me", and so I agreed to go to the bar. I picked her up and drove to the Whiskey Tango on Bustleton Ave. We get inside and we sit together, I order a drink called a "Red Death" and she gets something for herself. We sit there talking for about 15-20 minutes, then Matt shows up and comes over and she gives him a hug, then walks off with him holding his hand...At this point the alcohol is in my system, so my pain was dulled at that moment. I ordered a second 'Red Death' mixed drink, sat there by myself drinking it, talking to random people that sat near me. After some time, I looked around for Matt and Jess, but I can't find them. I asked another person who knew them, and she says "They left about 15 minutes ago"...I got a hold of Matt on the phone, and he tells me "She wasn't felling good so we are heading back to my place"...Even with all that alcohol in me, that was one of the most painful moments of my life.
I felt so dumb and gullible and heartbroken. She convinced me to forgive her, and to go to the bar with her, only to ditch me and leave me thinking about what those 2 were doing together. I left the bar and sat in my car for about an hour trying to sober up. I couldn't take it anymore, and for the first time in my life (and only time), I drove while under the influence. I made it home safe and went to bed. The next day I was extremely depressed, and hungover. I couldn't make sense of what happened, I hung out with this girl for about 2 weeks, went through a roller coaster of emotions, and never even hooked up with her. Cuddling and holding hands was as far as it went. I called out from work and just sat around wondering why I have had so many horrible experiences with women. I spoke to Matt on the phone again, and he says "She told me you tried to kiss her" and I was like "Shes mental", and he goes "Yeah I know shes lying."...After that I never spoke to Jess again, but she did leave a message on my answering machine about 2 weeks later. "Hey Eric, I just wanted to let you know I'm getting married next month, give me a call if you want an invite to the wedding". WOW, just unbelievably heartless and evil, what a god damn psychopath. I deleted the message and that was the last I heard from her. I know its not cool to try and get with a friends ex, but I had been alone most of my life up to this point, finding someone who is into me (or so I thought at the time) is nearly impossible. I'm not sorry I tried to find happiness for myself, I'm just sorry she was a heartless fucking bitch.
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